I went alone, which is something I don't do very often and I totally loved it. I love the way that hearing new music inspires me...it eddies off in my brain into lyric fragments that my brain breaks down and resembles. It's fantastic. I must remember to do this more often from now on...go see more shows, by my self preferably. It just does me so much good.
I read in an interview that she writes songs sometimes as notes of encouragement to her self, hoping to feel differently, more cheerful about something. I love that.
Songwriting is such a tricky business...I struggle, but when I've finished something I'm so proud. I know so little about melody, structure, the rules of songwriting, all I have is words, and I love them so very much. I think of my songs a bit more impressionisticly. Like I'm trying to capture a moment in time with words. Every time I perform I feel as though I've ripped pages out of my diary for the world to read, it's a strange feeling to see someone singing along to what is essentially your diary. I want more gigs. I think I need a manager or something to kick my ass...hahaha.
Thinking about all of this is so much nicer than thinking about my work today...which is a little bit spirit crushing. I have to learn this horrid phone programming, which goes SO FAR above my head. It's basically DOS language. It makes me crazy. Ugh.
I think I'm going to stay in dreamland today.